You believe that God can give you
life." "Yes, the God that created me can give me life. I was too proud
to get down on my knees by the fire, and said, 'O God, teach me.' And as
I prayed, I don't understand it, but it began to get very dark, and my
heart got very heavy. I was afraid to tell my wife, and I pretended to
be asleep. She kneeled down beside that bed, and I knew she was praying
for me. I kept crying, 'O God, teach me.' I had to change my prayer, 'O
God save me; O God, take away this burden.' But it grew darker and
darker, and the load grew heavier and heavier. All the way to my office
I kept crying, 'O God, take away this load of guilt; I gave my clerks a
holiday, and just closed my office and locked the door. I fell down on
my face; I cried in agony to my Lord, 'O Lord, for Christ's sake take
away this guilt.' I don't know how it was, but it began to grow very
light. I said, I wonder if this isn't what they call conversion. I think
I will go and ask the minister if I am not converted. I met my wife at
the door and said, 'My dear, I've been converted.' She looked in
amazement. 'Oh it's a fact; I've been converted! We went into that
drawing-room and knelt down by the sofa and prayed to God to bless us.
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